some one asked me today why am i still single? and i actually thought about it. why dont i just say yes to the next guy that asks me out? i mean, i could just be like every one else around here, end it after a month or so and say it meant some thing to me. it just seems to me that thats how most relationships are around here. but then i had to think about what i actually look for in a guy, and its really not so much looks. i guess what i want out of a guy is for him to not only be my boyfriend but my best friend as well. i want to actually be comfortable with some body, witch takes me a while to do, and not very many people are willing to stick around long enough for me to do that. and either i lose interest or he does. i dont know, maybe i should stop being such and baby and actually tell some one when im interested. i dont know. ive been spending too much time over thinking a stupid subjects lately. i need a drink and then to just go to sleep. i havent had much sleep. i deliriously over think things when i havent had enough sleep.

9 hours ago  /  1 note

so my friend had her baby today

so when i got out of work i went to the hospital and all. im sitting there with my friend her husband and her parents while she is breast feeding. in walks my fucking mom her husband and my sister. keep in mind i havent actually talked to my mom in at least 2 months, i didnt say happy birthday to her. i sent a happy mothers day text and just never responded after that. awkward. then it got more awkward when my step dad made some pervy jokes (cuz thats what he does) in front of my friends dad and her husband…. 

10 hours ago  /  1 note